random bits of love/hate

the other day i found a hilarious crumbled up posted note on a table in the library that i was studying at.

one side said: "i love you but i hate studying. xoxo" with a heart.
the other side said "i hate you.. but i love studying." with crossbones.

i can't decide which side should be first. its funny either way.

for some reason this note started me down a long train of thought with lots of random connections. just thought i would share.

isn't it funny how mistakable love and hate are? people say they aren't but they totally are. why else would you put so much energy, effort and time into a single person? they obviously bring out some pretty intense emotions in ya. and the most intense emotions i think are love and hate.

i think Stardust puts it best:
"I know that love is unconditional. But I also know that it can be unpredictable, unexpected, uncontrollable, unbearable and strangely easy to mistake for loathing."


farther down the rabbit hole we go because then i thought of a favorite quote from the play "Barefoot in the Park" by Neil Simon. this is a favorite movie/play between a miss katie johnson and myself. it pretty much sums up how i expect to be as a newly wed. HILARIOUS. really though- i recommend checking it out.
basically the plot is about this new couple that just got married and how they figure out married life. they live in a little crummy apartment on the top floor of a building that doesn't have an elevator, but to them its their little love nest. they are head over heels in love but they can really butt heads.


best part is when real life starts to happen. at one point the heat goes out in their apartment (aka hole in the wall) in the middle of winter and the whole day has gone wrong. they are in bed and just finished arguing. It is kind of Corie's fault why the heat went out and all night Paul has been trying not to blame her or get mad or admit that it was his fault. but Corie can tell and feels guilty. She knows Paul is mad at her and just wants him to admit to it. She turns to him as they freeze and says -

Corie: "Paul, do you hate me?"
Paul: "Yes."
Corie: "Then say it!"
Paul: "I hate you."
Corie: "And I hate you."

the way Robert Redford says it, is so so so funny! and Corie is a perfect reflection of how girls are sometimes haha. its just so great.

ok well hope this crazy brain train made sense to anyone other than myself.
sometimes i visualize my brain as a over flowing messy closet bursting of random junk and i am the only one who can navigate through all the mess. but since this is my blog, it seems fitting for it to match my mind.